All things aside it was a great night.

For me.. last night was great.. with some exceptions. First of all I would like to apologize to everyone about last night, especially Gerrit. But let me make something very clear, I do not believe I have done anything wrong. Some things were misinterpreted, and some people's pride left bruised, but not one single individual is to blame. This my friends, was definately a group effort. For those of you who have known me for a considerable chunk of my life should have realized my obvious jest. As you all know, sex is not something I take lightly. Think about it, it took me 10 months to even have sex with my boyfriend. I don't believe in casual sex, or sex with my good guy friends. WHICH MEANS When I talk about sex with you, I am JOKING. [excluding in depth conversations with Kate, Michelle or any of the other female counterparts]. I figured sex was a safe topic to joke about with my good friends, but apparently not. Apparently god damn well EVERYTHING is taken literally these days. But what really bothers me the most, is the fact that it was actually expected from me. A friend. Without any actual concern for MY feelings on the matter. They were not taken into account at all. So Jordan, Alex and Gerrit, you know what this means; you will never, EVER get anything sexual from me. Anything I say will be a joke, just to clarify. And now that i have made myself perfectly clear, I would like to address Jordan's "stirring the pot." Let's never fucking do it. It's because of that stupid idea that all of this shit happened in the first place. And I'm not just blaming Jordan. All of us do it at some point. So let's stop. This group does not need any more god damn drama. We have enough without turning each other against everyone. And, as for the 'predictions', well someone is leaving though it's not the obvious choice. Since I seem to cause all the problesm, I will take my leave of all of you. That's right. If you're so god damn sick of me I won't come around or talk to you anymore. As instructed by Gerrit, I won't talk to him specifically. Since I fuck up his life something horrible it seems. Well, I'm tired and very sick of all the political bullshit that goes on in this group. Everyone talk behind everyone else's back, and I'm sick of it. I'm very confident that I was a popular topic of conversation whilst I was at the overdrive. We call ourselves friends... the 'lush' squad. Well that all went to hell a long time ago. And for the record, I would never date anyone in this group. I would rather gouge out my ovaries with a splintered wooden spoon. So there you have it, love me or hate me, or just be indifferent towards me. I don't care. I don't have time to deal with everyone else's shit on top of my own. I know it may not seem like it, but I love you guys. later days.